In June of 2014 I desperately and endlessly asked God what I needed to do to make adjustments in my life that would bring hope for the future and relief for the day.
I was leaving Vasa Gym in Sandy, UT, when as is habitual, I opened my Podcast app and searched through the BYU Classics.
I tried to play a devotional by Richard G. Scott. Be what may, the dang thing would not play, displaying some "error" message. As is my nature when I get something on my mind, it's quite difficult for me to "let it go" - no matter how many times my children play Frozen. This is a part of my character that is both a strength and a weakness, that I've come to realize only meekness helps me achieve a harmony of when to hold on and when to move on.
A half dozen times of getting the error message; knowing my phone had LTE service, it seemed a little odd. I wondered for a moment, if there was possibly something else I ought to listen to? So, I asked.
Braked at a red light, my eyes scanned the list of devotionals on the app. I was drawn, a better adjective would be more like pulled to one I have never seen before- "Meekly Drenched in Destiny" by Elder Neal A. Maxwell.
Quickly, I clicked play on Maxwell's devotional. The light turned green. And that blasted "error" message went away, and Neal's voice pushed through my car's speakers.
Within minutes a soft whisper came to my heart and answered that prayer I had prayed so many times over the last couple of months. The answer came gently and I knew- meekness was my weakness.
I knew clearly meekness was what God wanted from me; what I need for myself.
When I get something on my mind I don't get off it till I've achieved what I believe I was supposed to.
Today, almost ten months later, I've remained acutely sensitive to anything regarding meekness. I've read, studied & noted everything I can get my hands on and my mind around. I have even written a little on the subject, but for those I spend my time with they will tell you it's now a subject that often on my mind.
This morning, while reading Dietrich Bonhoeffer's biography I picked up on a short quote at the beginning of chapter 11 from Hitler knocking meekness.
When thinking on that quote my mind hears the Trix rabbit saying "silly Christians, meekness is for the weak"
I pondered on Hitler's statement quite a bit this morning. As I did a small whisper came to me and said "see what Lincoln has on meekness". Admittedly, I responded with almost a shrug of my shoulders while I thought to myself "alright" with a tone that implied 'sure why not, what else do I have to go off of'.
Lincoln's Poem on Meekness
"Meekness is not weakness its strength under control,
Don’t think of me as weak, shy, reserved, or timid.
I’m a child of the king the half has not yet been told. No!
You can’t walk all over me and treat me like a door mat,
I’m not trying to straighten out the world and that settles that.
I refuse to respond to every critic and I won’t let it bother me,
I may have the power to do something about it,
but my time Is too valuable you see:
I’ll keep my focus and stand tall doing What I’m called to do.
My strength and power is in God’s control Meekness is not weakness,
blessed are the chosen few."
Lincoln and Hitler, two very powerful men. As is the pattern of discerning between Truth & Error, few things differentiate between the two. How One views meekness is a great sign of Truth.