As a father of two children, an uncle, cousin and friend to many I think about the difficulties parenting has produced in my life. The typical challenges that all parents face. I feel as though there is nothing unique about my hardships in comparison to any other parents.
I would sacrifice everything. I have cried myself to sleep and on some nights I have sobbed sleeplessly. I would endure far more than I have to be a father. In some regards, I do feel like I have sacrificed more than I ever thought I could. The worst event of my life was fighting over custody, wondering if I would ever be a part of my children's lives. I lost love and even lost happiness during this time. I lost hope.
Hindsight is 20/20 and looking back I perceived it to be far worse than maybe what it actually might have been. I was scared, and with fear pulsing through my heart and my life crumbling to a state of mere existence I am forever grateful for the opportunity to be a parent.
That which I have lost would never replace the subtle and sweet things gained from parenthood. We can always put our lives back together. We can always find a way to improve our circumstances; with 20/20 vision I can always look back and learn from my weaknesses and with enough of God's grace we can transform our weakness to something we become remarkably wise and strong about, and it has been my experience that children are the perfect catalyst for overcoming life's most paralyzing doubts and fears.
The reason life is so good is because of life's little feet pitter-pattering across the floors of time. Those pitter-pats once were my own, and now as my babies run through the house and I listen to their foot steps I realize that it's the small things in life that make life so good.